'i hope you'll be there'

on PostSecret today i found a thread. it was started by iamyourbird and it was called: i hope you'll be there. and it hit me hard because this is what i have been trying to say for so long, but am afraid to tell you.

"now i have no way to contact you.you moved from your house you change our phone .you only exist in my mind .but in this place you ll live for ever

but one thing for sure keep your senses awake be receptive be and understandable as you always been with me
check around be open and don''t forget me

my only hope is that you ll read this
and that you ll understand"

do you get it now? do you understand how much i miss you? and i do, despite what you did, i miss you.